On this episode of CitN Will, Chris and Mike talk about Chris seeing Jurassic World, Mike seeing Carey Elwes live, Mike and Chris being the 21st best Tavern Trivia team in the world, the complete awesomeness that is “Not Your Father’s Root Beer”, Marvel rebooting its comic universe, and more!
On this episode of CitN Will, Chris and Mike talk The Oscars and The Razzies, as well as Some Agent Carter and Daredevil news.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. Those of you that know me know that is never a good thing.
I’m a thinker. I plan, I think, I dream but ultimately I just stay where I am. I almost feel like I should be on the poster for a wasted potential campaign. My brain is a scary place to be alone in, not all the time mind you, but there are times when I go so far down the rabbit hole that I almost shut down completely. I apologize in advance if I get a little rambly, I have a mess of thoughts in my head that I need to get out.
FYI this is going to be a bit of a personal post, not really gaming related. If you decide to stop reading this post I totally understand. For those that stick around, thanks for indulging me.
Professionally, where I am and where I want to be is completely fucked. I work for a cell phone retailer. I’ve worked in retail for almost all of my adult life in some capacity. I can’t stand working in retail. I will say that the company I’m working for now is one of the better ones that I’ve worked for but still, it’s retail. I was out of retail for a couple of years and I loved it, but the pay was shit. That’s the problem when you have no marketable skills, you’re kind of stuck only doing what you know.
I watched The Internship the other day and it got me thinking about myself a lot. For those of you that haven’t seen it, I’ll give you the quick summary: Vince Vaughn and Owen Wilson are two salesmen who don’t realize the company that they work for just folded up. Own Wilson gets a job and tries to make the best the situation that he was dealt. Vince goes home and finds an eviction notice and his wife is leaving him because she’s tired of all the dreams and plans that he has that go nowhere or that blow up in the end. After looking for jobs online, Vince discovers the Google Internship program and convinces Owen to go with him.
I found myself totally relating to Vince Vaughn’s character. He’s in sales, he’s a dreamer and his world is always seemingly on the edge of imploding by either his own hand or just the tiniest mistake that the universe tends to focus on. That last bit is totally me, I’m ALWAYS waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel like I’m a “live in the moment” type of guy that just can’t see when shit is about to go terribly wrong. When I do finally see the inevitable shitstorm coming, I try to distance myself from people to eliminate the fallout. Or maybe it’s because I just want to suffer through it alone. Either way, I tend to fuck things up all around me anyway, as much as I try not too.
The thing is there are tons of things I can (and would rather be) doing than working retail, things I would be great at, but because I don’t have a degree or a certificate, I won’t even be considered for. I love to write, that pretty much why I started blogging eons ago on http://halfazedninja.blogspot.com (which apparently doesn’t exist anymore). Also, holy shit, I just found a picture of myself from 2007 on pwned.com. What the hell was I thinking. I also have no clue what my login is for that site anymore so that picture will stay there forever.
Anyway, I love to write so much that I’ve started writing a book. Well, in reality, I’ve started writing a book like 5 different times. I also have a finished script for a TV show that I’ve written as well. Out of all of the books I’ve started to write, I like this one the best. It’s a sci-fi story that I’m not divulging too much info on until I have at least 4 more chapters done but, in my head, I can see the whole story. I’m just stuck on how to connect some of the dots and how to make it make sense.
But that’s the thing, That’s just one of the many dreams I have. My endgame is to do something I love and get paid for it so I don’t have to keep working my shitty job and have to deal with not being able to give my family the life it deserves. It’s hard as fuck living with me, hell there are days I can’t even stand living with myself. I have this constant feeling of failure and regret and it seems like every day I’m adding something new to the pile.
I’m 37 years old. I’m young enough to be stupid but old enough to know better. I’m not a “normal” adult. I hate hanging out with people my own age. Any friends that I have are usually (with a few exceptions) at least a decade younger than me and don’t even live anywhere close to me. At family functions when we get together with my wife’s family I usually hangout with my nieces and nephews because I have more to talk about than the “adult” conversation going on between the more mature family members. I’d rather just play and bullshit with the kids (some of them aren’t even kids anymore with the three oldest nieces being 19 & 18). Does that mean something is wrong with me or I’m stunted? No clue.
What I do know is that I’ve made a series of probably terrible choices to put me in the position I am in today and that I know I’m to blame for it. I’ve been playing the “what if” game for a long time and I’m tired of it. I need to stop with the what ifs and work on the what nows. I have a lot of shit going on that I’m going to have to deal with in the coming months, again both personally and professionally and I have to look towards the future. I’m not getting any younger either. Any dreams I ever had of working at at place like IGN, Kotaku and the like are pretty much gone. Any of those positions whether it’s writing, community management or whatever will go to someone younger and with more experience (again, even though I know I’m more than capable of doing the job). If anything is going to happen, it has to be because I’m making it happen.
So, while I’m sitting here in my personal hell of a job working my second twelve hour day in a row, I’m going to finish writing this post, watch some Orange Is The New Black (which is a fucking awesome show if you’re not watching it by the way) and start the next chapter of my book, if I’m not all worded out by know, Didn’t realize I was hitting close to 1200 words.
More updates to come!
Holy shit it’s Friday? Damn this week flew by!
That’s all I got for this week, it’s been a bit of a blur. Next week look for a new CiTN, Tales from The Ninjaverse and, quite possibly, the new gaming show that has risen from the ashes of 2N1P. I have a guest lined up, one you’re all familiar with, we’re just trying to nail down a recording time. Stay tuned!
Let’s just get the bad news out of the way first. 2 Ninjas 1 Podcast is going on a bit of a hiatus.
There’s a lot of changes going on behind the scenes (that I can’t talk about just yet) and JD wants to help out on that side of things. It’s a decision that I wasn’t too happy with but, after discussions last night, I’m a little better with. In light of that, 2N1P will be changing. We’re not sure what direction the show will take: A new name (obviously), am I going to have a series of guest hosts until I find someone, will I just have open discussions with various people in the industry? I don’t know. we’ll have more info on that in the coming weeks.
Because of the hiatus of 2N1P, Converse in The Ninjaverse will be recorded and aired in a slightly different fashion. We’ve worked out a better recording schedule so that certain features (such as the Box Office) aren’t woefully out of date by the time the show goes up. We are also adding a CiTN mini preview show (name pending) as an intro to the movies and/or events happening that coming weekend and then talk about that stuff on CiTN proper.
Chris, Mike and author Chris Jensen are also going to try to put out our horror themed podcast, Tales From The Ninjaverse, on a more consistent basis. If demand is high enough it may be going to a bi-weekly basis. More on that at a later date.
The other change may surprise long time listeners of 2N1P: I bought a Wii U and am enjoying the hell out of it.
Okay, so I got a little caught up in the Mario Kart 8 hype and it’s not going to replace my PC as my main gaming machine anytime soon, but the Wii U is actually a fun little machine. That being said, I won’t purchasing anything on there that’s isn’t a Nintendo exclusive. Also, in my opinion, Nintendo KILLED IT at E3. My only tinge of disappointment came from that lack of a Metroid title announcement, but I’ll live because holy shit that Zelda game!
The fact that it’s open world excites the hell out of me. Let’s be honest, almost every Zelda game since the NES has followed the same formula. This is going to shake it up and looks like a fucking anime as well. Take my money in 2015.
Speaking of 2015, is there ANYTHING coming out this year? It seems that almost everything is coming out in 2015, especially when it comes to Sony. The only games coming out for PS4 this year that I’d want to play is Destiny and Little Big Planet 3 (which was a nice surprise). But The Order, Batman: Arkham Knight, Uncharted 4 and a bunch of others are all coming out in 2015. Evolve is coming out this year (for now) but I’ll probably buy that on PC.
And Microsoft? Other than the announcement of Crackdown for the Xbox One, nothing really super exciting struck me. Now that Dead Rising 3 is coming out for PC my interest in a Xbox One is less than zero.
So, yeah, there are some changes happening. If it helps us grow, I’m all for it. More announcements coming soon.
I think my family and friends are trying to kill me.
So Mrs. Ninja has decided that we should go camping this 4th of July weekend with another family. I’m not very outdoorsy and have spent my life avoiding horror movie-type situations. I’ve seen this movie, the ethnic guy dies first.
Now I know I’m overreacting. We’ll be in a cabin on a campground (which is as close to nature as I’m getting) so I know it won’t be totally terrible but still, never once have I wanted to go camping in life. Ever. I grew up in upstate New York in a heavily wooded area. But there’s scary things outside like bears, cobras, mountain lions, chupacabras and The Blair Witch.
The only WiFi that’s available is in the main house on the property. WHAT TYPE OF ANIMALS LIVE LIKE THIS? My kids have also turned against me. My own flesh and blood are trying to institute a “no electronics trip” (other than our phones for pictures). It’s criminal, how did my family become so cruel?
My daughter Harlee instituted an “Amish Week” (as she called it) last week. She didn’t use her phone or Kindle, only used the computer for homework and read instead of watched TV. She actually made it Sunday – Friday but had to end the week early because one of her friends was “having a crisis” (aka tween girl drama).
I guess I’ll be bringing up some family friendly, not Cards Against Humanity, games like Sentinels of the Multiverse, various Munchkin flavors, Zombie Dice, Say Anything, Pandemic and other more conventional games (like Scrabble and Monopoly). I love Sentinels by the way. I played it for the first time at PAX East and bought that and an expansion right away. Head over to their site and check it out, it’s super fun and easy to play.
More on the camping trip as it develops…
Will wasn’t there this week so Gene from The Hammer Podcasts joins Chris and Mike for Summer movie talk!